We Will Survive

Today we have a new Bible study group at our home. So I did all the usual cleaning and shining. I planted 3 miniature rosebushes by my new trellis Lennie put up for me. It looks so pretty. When the passion vines grow up the trellis and bloom, it'll be just spectacular! I cut up some fruit for my fruit tray and made Scott some sweet tea.  So all is ready.

And still I feel a little down. I miss my mother's arms around me, and it's been almost 19 years that she's gone. It seems so unfair that I didn't have her longer, and my boys didn't have their grandmom. I guess it's because I have chemo on Friday, and I feel it's a chemical invader going through my body. No one understands until they have to go through it. I certainly never understood it until now. So I don't blame anyone for not understanding. So, yes, I want my mom, and she's not here. And I do feel the Lord is with me -- that He's right beside me as always, and I'm so thankful for that knowledge.

I feel a great urgency to keep praying for my friends and neighbors that they would all find Him soon and accept His perfect gift of Salvation--to know they would be eternally with Him someday. That is my daily prayer. And it is urgent because I believe the Lord is coming soon.

See, I'm not afraid of dying because I know I'll be with the Lord forever -- life with Him eternal.

And I know He knows how I feel even without me telling Him. He knows I miss my mom. He knows I'm not eager to go to the cancer center and have chemo again. He knows all my "down" moments and that I'm okay because I have Him. He knows me.

There's a song many of you have heard. You probably have memories of singing it with your children as I have many, many times. Jesus loves me this I know. I have a plaque in my home that says "Jesus Knows Me This I Love." And it's true!