We Will Survive

I had my 3rd chemo treatment on Friday even tho my white cell count was very low.  My doctor didn't want to miss another week so I had to go back up to Charlotte the following day for a shot of Neulasta which is supposed to try to get your bone marrow to produce more white cells. Trouble is it causes bone pain.  A friend of mine who has breast cancer had told me that if I ever had to get a shot of Neulasta to take a claritin in the morning and continue it for 3 days to keep the bone pain away.  So I did. It worked pretty well although my arms and legs started to ache Monday morning.  I also got sick that morning as soon as Lennie left for work :(  That night I also suffered from restless arms and legs which drives you crazy...took a phenargan and went to bed at 8:30. 

Today I'm feeling a whole lot better.

Sometimes during the "sickness and pain" days, it's not so easy to not feel sorry for yourself especially when you don't have any family or friends around to help.

But then I always remember David.

In 1Samuel, the Philistines were making war against David.  And in 1Samuel 30 the Amalekites invaded Ziklag and burned it and took captive the women and children two of which were his own wives.  In verse 6 it reads "And David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters. But David encouraged himself in the Lord."

So that's what I do.  I encourage myself in the Lord.  I put in a CD of praise songs and tell the Lord, "This is for you" and I sing the praises to Him.  I read His love letters He left for me.  And as always, I know He is enough.