We Will Survive

Today I decided to start writing online instead of just journaling at home on paper. I hope maybe someone will be helped by what I'm going through.  Actually, I should say "we".  Me, my family here on earth, and of course, my Abba.

I have ovarian cancer.  It's a tough thing to go through when you've never done it before.  It started back in November when I started having some pain in my abdomen and went for a checkup.  That day I knew.

I'm 54 years old and in excellent health they said except for the cancer, of course. I had 2 masses.

I remember that day as I came home one of my builders who doesn't know the Lord saw me and asked me why I wasn't around for a couple of days..I usually walked through our growing neighborhood every day.  He looked at me when I hesitated and said "Tell me now because I'll find out anyhow".  When I told him, he got up and walked over to me and gave me a big hug and said "Don't worry, nothing is going to happen to you.  We all love you".  It was like God Himself gave me that big hug.  He always gives us just what we need when we need it, and I surely did need that hug!

My husband was sent home from work after I called him by his boss who said "Your wife needs you now."  She also sent the chaplain and his wife.  What a blessing that was having someone come and pray with us at our time of need!

Remember, He always gives us what we need when we need it and not before.

I have been praying for our little community for over a year that the Lord would save each person moving into these new homes as well as all the people working here. And I wondered how all these people would see the Lord and find Him unless something happened.  I asking Him that very question.  Then I said "Now wait...I didn't mean me!" But then I knew what He wanted so I told him whatever His will was I would be a part of it.  That's the beginning of the story.

So much has happened since then. 

On December 6, 2007 I had a complete hysterectomy..everything went.  Then I was sent home to recover.  My husband doted on me and took good care of me.  I call him my helicopter because he hovers over me in a loving way watching out for me and making sure I'm all right.

I have another helicopter.  He's my Abba.  My father.  He hovers lovingly over me watching me from above sending His angels when I need them.  There have been times when I was suffering greatly and not knowing what was happening yet He did, and He had everything in control.  It's at these times when we have to trust His sight, His guidance because He sees when we can't.  This is where our faith in Him comes from within our heart, our soul..and we just "be" in Him.

C.S.Lewis said "God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains; it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."  It may just be the testimony of His love and grace in my life that will point others to Him.  And also to other christians to see me and think more on eternity and what awaits us in Heaven as well as what awaits the unsaved after death.

Something to think on.